It is about to be the year twothousandandseven and two thousand and six went by in the blink of an eye.
 Every year millions of people set goals for themselves for the New year, and every year millions of them fail. 
This is partly because their goals are unrealistic, but it also sad on the ones who try but do not succeed.
Two Thousand and Six has gone by and I have accomplished a lot so far, but I am still not where I want to be. 
There are many other things in this world that I want do as I am still young (eighteen). T
here are many dreams and desires that I want to fulfill and have that are fully capable for me to reach, but I am just to afraid or nervous to reach for them.
This has controlled my life for the past year, but it has remain unobserved by my friends and family.
The definition of a friend is “a person who one knows, likes, and trusts.”
That is the actual definition.
I define it is “as person WHO knows, who is liked, and who is trusted.”
A true friend can pinpoint hidden feelings amongst other true friends. 
They do not need tears or frustrations to be displayed in order to determine if something is wrong. 
A true friend needs to look between the lines and see that something is just not right. 
Even if that person puts up a barrier, a true friend needs to fight that wall and simply help.
This is how I plan to live my life, as a true friend.
My new years resolution is to fulfill what I stated in this messege.

"Id rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I'm not."

I dont even know why Im going to do this but here we go....So Im a Christian...ok lets change that. Im suppose to be a Christian. But being a Christian and being a homosexual dont work together. Now this is the thing. I beleive in God. I beleive that he did die on the cross for our sins...and I actually do enjoy going to church every Sunday. So the question is, Why am I what I am? I know its against my religion. and I have prayed about it on more than one occasion. But prayer right now is not working. Today during our service, the preacher was talking about how homosexuals are saying how America is uncivilizied and there just out there in front of our children doing what ever they please. There are just so many "why" questions that  I want answered. Well I did the unthinkable and asked my parents what they think about homosexuals. They were very blunt about it. Basically they said, they were never exposed to the environment and they dont know anyone that is a homosexual. and that we dont support that as part of our religion. So was this the perfect time to tell them about me? I thought about it. And decided to hold off awhile longer.
I just dont know what to do. I pray and pray and pray for God to help me through this, but nothing...Should I still keep trying to change to do whats good?


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